So, love is a decent word. It carries all your pains and sorrows away. And love is patient. Love is giving. Love is forgiveness. And one day, when you find love, your dream is just become...

   Monday, September 29, 2003  

got back all my results pther than GP today. quite happy with it. chem i thought was a flop, but it turned out to be a nice 65 marks B. it was great considering that i really din know how to do quite a number of qns. FM was alrite. i did 70- marks for both papers and i got 67/62. also a 65 marks B. my hard work paid off i guess. i will continue to improve. i will fight on. maths C was a scrappy A. both papers just scrapping past 70. lucky. need to work on it. quite happy as din study for it. been concentrating only on chem n fm. phy was good. haven mark finish physics of fluid and i got 69.3%. just need 1 mark from the 30 mark qn to secure my A. happy. proved ms yee wrong to accused us of tyco-ing our A in ct. haha.
heard girl has gd improved results. really glad for her. hugz...
zhan

   posted by zHaN at 9/29/2003 05:32:00 am






   Tuesday, September 16, 2003  

tired. felt so pissed with myself. i remembered studying it the night before. i remember looking through it the very morning. i remember i got it wrong the previous test. but i just cant get the damn bloody chemical reagents and conditions into my darn head. felt real pissed. i dont believe i cant even overcome this small reaction. maybe i am not just cut out for chemistry, but i dont believe in that sort. demoralised, but not out. there is still hope. thursday paper. prac was genrally well done according to mr wong. thats a consolation. prac is 20%.
tml is fm. it is a long and tiring paper. i just pray i cant "see" it. bless me.
zJ... trailing off... i need recharging...

   posted by zHaN at 9/16/2003 03:56:00 am






   Monday, September 15, 2003  

it is the time of the year. yes, the exam period. today is the first day into the written paper exams. an ordeal of 2 weeks to many. me? i dun feel much. i wonder. i really want to do well and secure a better chance for my dream scholarship-teach. however, i dont feel the anxiousness in making the extra bit of effort to study. drained. sianz. staring at the notes i seen upteen times, all seems as though i know, but when down to doing qns, theres so much i couldnt apply. maybe i should start trying out thousands of qns, but, time is so short! what shld i try? i pick a few n i do them. i ran out of stamina. well, take it as another small test paper lor. what can i do? nothing much i guess. sleep early n take care...
yeah, its late... tired. time to sleep... all the best to everyone out there... esp u girl... dun let me worry. =)
zJ

   posted by zHaN at 9/15/2003 08:21:00 am






   Monday, September 08, 2003  

it was sweet. really sweet. a simple sentence at woodlands mrt station. "every time out with ya, it feels like a fairy tale". i was really really touched. beyond words. hugz... next year shall be NS year. 2.5 years i mean. while i m quite worried, she told me... "go accompany ur family. i will come n find u". that was surely not something i had expected... it came as a real pleasent surprise. din expect anyone in this world to make such a wei3 da4 statement... tonite is my nite... i love u girl...
zJ

   posted by zHaN at 9/08/2003 09:23:00 am






   Monday, September 01, 2003  

yesterday was probably one of my most memorable trips to ubin. me, sam, xieren and jiwei formed a team to compete in the ubin challenge urban escape (ueuc). each of us know ubin like the back of our hands and we went there with anticipation... hoping to bring back the champ. we stayed at sJ;s house the nite b4 as he stays at punggol and travelling from there to changi wld take the shortest time.
for dunno what reason, sj planted his house with tons of mothballs. once we stepped into his room, we felt as though he is not just trying to keep out pest, but also humans, esp jiwei (who has g6pd blood deficiency and is allergic to mothballs...) lol. nevertheless, i still managed to sleep comfortably (at the expense of louis) through the nite.
it was intimidating at the basketball court. everyone looks so good... esp the nyp team which is in the same catergory as us. muscular, have the i-know-everything-look and READY-to-set-off... we registered and did a bit of stretching (which proved to be insufficient).
jc/poly category was flagged off at 9.30 sharp. we chiong-ed to our first checkpoints, which is puaka. it was simple as we DO know where EXACTLY the place is. following that, sprinted on wheels to tyre beach. full speed. no rest. haha. then, we went on the resort and sam did his bungee jump. all was cleared in a matter of less than 45 minutes. the tiring part for me came when i had to paddle with sj a double kayak with only one paddle. we had to travel the primeter of a triangle and get the next coordinate code. there were 3 teams ahead of us at that moment out at sea. sj n me launched at full speed and we immediately overtook one team ...which CAPSIZED... dot dot dot. we made our first turn and sj took over the paddling. i was "showered with salty blessings" thanx to sj's wonderful paddling skills.... we made another turn and i took over. at this moment, we discovered that we had even over taken the other 2 teams that were much in front of us initially! i raced back to the shore and we move on. one intereting comment we overheard... a guy n lady on the beach from other teams were saying (with a stunned look)..." wah! they come back already ar... "
then, it was jiwei turn to go river crossing at the y-junction overlooking chalet. it was not easy esp with the fact that the stretch of water is really long. he did well but guess his muscles kinda contracted a bit while in water... we took off after that and he immediately went down with cramps. thank goodness, we had the cramp king (thats me) in the group. though stupid looking, i managed to save him fast. however, it was a regret as he sprinted off like no one business right after that. "crazy" guy. haha. later on, it wasnt that smooth sailing. i went down with cramps not long after. on one stretch, it was damn funny. i had cramps n i shouted jiwei. he stopped his bike and wanted to save me, but when his legs touched the ground, he shouted and couldnt move. sj heard us and stopped .... and he shouted too. sam looked back and sigh(laughing)..."cannot be la.. all 3 pple cramp together...." luckyily that stretch of road was quite deserted at that time. so malu.
our last checkpoint was english cottage and after that, we went on this principle that as long as the angle of inclination of the slope ios greater than 15 degress, we will push the bike. ha. we managed to go back quite fast. with about 200m to go, me n jiwei sprinted back and after we crossed the line, both of us collapse and shouted in pain. that is real cramp. haha. it was another hour of cramp for me later on... damn funny n pain... we found out that for jc/poly category, we were the first team! woohoo! dreams turned reality... a while after we rested, we saw another red tag coming in... it turned out to be our year 1 girls with the guys followiung behind! it was a one-two finish! after a while longer, 2 teams raced towards the finishing line... we spotted yingyi and we were damn excited. we shouted to them to cross the line and PHEW... they did it just seconds before the last man of the other team did it... it was a clean sweep... 1-2-3. the last senior came in 5th (thanx for a half hour delay cos of some screw up on the org part)... it was a big clean sweep. elated.
its now back to stuyding. prelim coming. study... theres an end to everthing at some time. this is an end to playing. study time now...

   posted by zHaN at 9/01/2003 03:28:00 am